Billie Eilish is being honest about her struggles with public perception and her own body image.
The pop star opened up about how social media affects her feelings about her body in an interview with The Guardian promoting her second studio album, Happier Than Ever. Eilish, 19, spoke honestly about how she perceives her body changes on a day-to-day basis.
“I see people online, looking like I’ve never looked. And immediately I am like, ‘Oh my God, how do they look like that?’ I know the ins and outs of this industry, and what people actually use in photos, and I actually know what looks real can be fake. Yet I still see it and go, ‘Oh God.’ That makes me feel really bad,” she said.
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She continued, “And I mean, I’m very confident in who I am, and I’m very happy with my life … I’m obviously not happy with my body, but who is?”
Eilish, 19, also went into detail about how she has to push away negative thoughts to perform. “When I’m on stage, I have to disassociate from the ideas I have of my body. Especially because I wear clothes that are bigger and easier to move in without showing everything — they can be really unflattering. In pictures, they look like, I don’t even know what. I just completely separate the two,” she said.
Eilish also pointed out how weird it is her body, or any body, to be the subject of such conversation and dissection. She admitted that paparazzi photographs of herself and reactions to them on social media also impact her mindset.
“We only need bodies to eat and walk around and poop. We only need them to survive. It’s ridiculous that anybody even cares about bodies at all. Like, why? Why do we care? You know, when you really think about it?,” she told The Guardian.
“Why do we care about hair?” she continued. “Why does everybody hate body hair so much, but we literally have an enormous thing of hair on our heads, and that’s, like, cool and pretty. Like, what’s the difference? I mean, I love hair, and I do crazy things with my hair. I’m as guilty as everybody else. But it’s so weird. If you think about it hard, you go crazy.”
This article originally appeared in Harper’s BAZAAR US