Hailey and Justin Bieber spoke candidly about the darkest moments from their marriage—and why they refused to quit on each other—during a guest appearance on podcast In Good Faith with Chelsea & Judah Smith.
Hailey recalled the pain of witnessing Justin, who previously opened up about his experience with depression, go through mental health struggles during the early days of their marriage. (The two officially wed in a civil ceremony in late 2018, then got hitched again in a lavish ceremony the following year.)
“I remember I called [my mom] a few different times, one particular time when we were in Brooklyn and I was calling her, I was crying, and I was like, ‘I just can’t do it. There is no way that I’m going to be able to do this if it’s going to be like this forever,’” she said. “And I just remember she was so calm on the phone, and she was like, ‘It’s going to pass, and you’re going to be fine and he’s going to be healthy and we’re here for you.’ And I do feel like we had a lot of support. I feel like if I didn’t have support, it would’ve been 10 times harder, and it was already the hardest thing of my life at the time.”
The supermodel added that she consciously made the decision to stay with him. “I also just think I was in it,” she said. “I made a decision. I know for a fact that I’ve loved this person for a very long time, and now would not be the time to give up on him. I just wouldn’t do that to him. Imagine abandoning somebody in the middle of the worst time of their life, potentially. I’m not that type of a person. So I was going to stick it out no matter what the outcome was going to be.”
“I’m so grateful that you did,” Justin replied.
Hailey continued, “There were days where I literally was like, ‘I don’t know if he’s going to be okay.’ Something really deep down inside of me was like, ‘He’s going to get through it.’ I didn’t know how long it was going to take.”
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Asked whether or not he had a breakthrough moment that allowed him to overcome his mental health issues, Justin said that time was the only antidote. “I just think it was time that healed things, just us showing up for each other every day, just being consistent, me seeing that she wasn’t going anywhere. I think I had a lot of rejection issues that I had to just fight through, but just her just continuously showing up every day and being there for me, and I just kept seeing that over and over and over. And I just became more secure.”
Hailey added, “Neither of us were going to be the person to say, ‘I quit.’ Neither of us were going to be the one to walk away from the situation, because we were just both like, ‘Hey, we chose to fight for this, so we’re gonna keep fighting past whatever we need to.’”
This article originally appeared on Harper’s BAZAAR US.