Emily Ratajkowski Was So Unhappy At The End Of Her Marriage That She Weighed 100 Pounds
“I’d just had a baby, and I got really skinny because I was not okay,” she says in a new interview.
Emily Ratajkowski reveals what it took to end her marriage with Sebastian Bear-McClard while appearing on podcast Going Mental.
The My Body author opens up about her separation from Bear-McClard, with whom she shares two-year-old son Sylvester Apollo, during her interview with host Eileen Kelly. Ratajkowski and Bear-McClard split in 2022 after four years of marriage.
"I didn't have the courage to leave for a long time. I was, like, really, really unhappy, and I was, like, 100 pounds, and I'd just had a baby, and I got really skinny because I was not okay," she says. "I tried everything else. I tried to take antidepressants. I was, like, sure something was wrong with me."
Despite the hardship she experienced toward the end of their relationship, Ratajkowski says she was better for it.
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"So much of what I learned of coming out of that relationship is, like, to trust your instincts and gaslighting is a real thing," she continues. "I didn't understand that it was actually gonna be so nice to come back to myself and, like, return back to how I see the world, how I understand things, my instincts."
She refuses to specify what led her to ultimately walk away from the marriage, citing her desire to protect her son's privacy and "legal reasons" since the two are not yet "officially divorced." Still, she alludes to certain boundaries that were crossed by the time the relationship was over.
"I'm a very, like, on-and-off person. I will literally, like, sit with people that I love—friends, family, whatever—for so long, and then if there's a line that's crossed, I'm like, 'Okay. That was it,'" she says. "For me, it was so clear, and then it just became clearer and clearer and clearer."
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Reports of infidelity emerged soon after Ratajkowski and Bear-McClard's impending divorce was announced last year. Kelly expressed how shocking the cheating rumors were, saying, "If she could get cheated on, we're all fucked."
Ratajkowski responds, "It was so interesting that that was the reaction to that news, because I was just like, 'Duh. Men are trash, ladies.' And it doesn't matter who you are, how perfect you are, whatever."
Though she doesn't talk about why she chose to walk away, she hints that she's open to discussing the divorce in the future.
"That's how I process things," Ratajkowski says. "I would probably write about it, if anything."
Ratajkowski has recently been linked to comedian Eric André.
During the interview, she speaks about the current man in her life, though she leaves him unnamed.
"I just started dating someone that I kind of like," she tells Kelly. "But if you talked to me four weeks ago, I would've been like, 'Absolutely [get the ick].' Now, I'm just like, 'Oh, well, he's kind of great.'"
She previously talked about being single for Harper's BAZAAR's November 2022 cover story.
"I can tell you that I have never been single before," she said at the time. "I feel all the emotions. I feel anger, sadness. I feel excitement. I feel joy. I feel levity. Every day is different. The only good thing I know is that I'm feeling all those things, which is nice because it makes me believe that I'll be okay."
This article originally appeared in Harper's BAZAAR US.