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Gwyneth Paltrow is looking ahead to her future.

In anticipation of her 50th birthday on September 27, Paltrow shared new bikini photos of herself on Instagram and on her Goop blog. The photos show her happily leaping through the air on a grassy field while wearing a slate gray triangle bikini.

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In the corresponding blog post shared on Goop’s website, the mogul contemplated the meaning of her upcoming milestone. She recalled celebrating the 50th birthdays of her mom, Blythe Danner, and dad, Bruce Paltrow. “I am struck by how, for both of my parents, 50 seemed like a reckoning. For my mother, it was a culmination of the wonderous, the highs, the loves, the art. For my father, a culmination of sorrows,” she wrote.

She also discussed accepting the physical change that naturally comes with getting older.

“My body, a map of the evidence of all the days, is less timeless. A collection of marks and irregularities that dog-ear the chapters,” Paltrow wrote. “Scarred from oven burns, a finger smashed in a window long ago, the birth of a child. Silver hair and fine lines. The sun has left her celestial fingerprints all over me, as if she soaked a brush in dark-taupe watercolor, flecking it over my skin. And while I do what I can to strive for good health and longevity, to stave off weakening muscles and receding bone, I have a mantra I insert into those reckless thoughts that try to derail me: I accept. I accept the marks and the loosening skin, the wrinkles. I accept my body and let go of the need to be perfect, look perfect, defy gravity, defy logic, defy humanity. I accept my humanity.”

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Paltrow wondered how her children—18-year-old Apple and 16-year-old Moses, whom she shares with her ex-husband Chris Martin—may come to remember the celebration of her 50th birthday.

“I think of my children, now old enough to remember this ‘big’ birthday of mine into their own adulthoods,” she said. “Perhaps their memory of it will be neither that I was solely elated, nor grieving the things I lost or did not bring to fruition. I hope that they can feel me feel all the things and hold in the complexity of that notion. That they know I am both good through and through, yet sometimes not. That my feelings of regret and my mistakes can act as scaffolding for what I build from now on. That they are the greatest accomplishment of my life.”

This article originally appeared on Harper’s BAZAAR US.

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